For the last two weeks I've been trying to do modified cry it out to eliminate one wake up at a time. I go in after 5-10 minutes and calm him without picking him up and then leave. The first week it seemed to be working. He even slept from 11-4 one night. It was amazing!!!!! But this week we are back to waking up every 1-2 hours. Right now at 2:30 AM I am nursing a baby who has been awake since 12:30. I give up. I just want to cry.
Everything in my body is screaming, "I can't do this anymore!" But then I have the frightening realization that I have no choice. I am this baby's mother.
I have nothing positive to say in this post which is hard because I usually find ways to lift myself up through my writing. I'm just so tired that I feel like I might die and there's no good in that. I love my baby though. He's really cute and so sweet. Ahh there it is...❤️